I can’t find the words to describe how I feel
Lost, empty, sad.
Today’s been a rocky day
moments piled on top of each
aching , reaching for that one
wishing for this wanting that
smiling signing crying
memories one on top of another
little voices, tiny hands
filled up
hopeful
warmth, sweetness, moons shine, it like a Jenga game, each piece balancing every so tentatively upon each other.
Life is surprising that way
always reaching higher
balancing just so
then it tumbles.
I am always trying to make this pile work
all the times I’ve thought I will just move this a tiny bit there is room.
I have always been so determined
to make that me best out of this situation
or that one
positive attitude
turn the other cheek
go the extra mile and at the end of the day I’m just here
People move on and relationships change
I’m avoided or dismissed
or I just imagine I am
little things
I never thought would change
and they do
I have to move forward
I have to move forward
and I do.
Its just a matter of moving this
or adjusting
rethinking
letting go
allowing the fall
maybe when its all fallen down
the piece’s will reveal the answer
unspoken misunderstandings 